love of local in Utah
sometimes
January 10th, 2013 in About Me
Sometimes out here I…
- …can feel very lonely, which results it me getting a little too excited when the library volunteer thinks to invite me to her birthday party.
- …drive two towns over to buy myself a root beer to remind me of home.
- …worry about the girls. If they are fulfilled and happy out here.
- …break down. Because I am not catching on to motherhood of four very well.
- …don’t know if I can handle homeschooling.
- …don’t live in the moment and worry too much about what our “next step” is.
- …use Google Translate to talk to my church friends on Facebook because I get so nervous and mess up talking to them in person.
- …when I am meeting someone for the first time, putting myself out there, it seems too much for me. And I just want to keep to myself and forget about learning and growing.
- …get annoyed at the power outages, pool guys not showing up, bug bites, and the heat.
- …snap so just meanly at my children that I feel disgusting inside.
Sometimes.
I have had a rough couple of days. My week started with my husband, I, and a few ladies at church thinking I had caught dengue fever. I was a sick puppy. A couple of days later, after I let out a good sobfest to my husband, I felt better. Although I promised to be honest about living abroad, so here it is!
I love you honest. Sometimes I…
…miss my friend who loves to shop as much–if not more–than I do.
…wish arranged marriages really were manageable so I could choose my in-laws (and Abby as George’s wife-to-be).
…ignore my kids for their own safety.
But always I am grateful I have you as a friend.
Sometimes I don’t call home for a week because it hurts to hear voices that I haven’t seen in so long.
Sometimes a good cry is all you need!! Sending you lots of hugs!!
Sometimes the baby sleeps through the night but I don’t because I have very anxious dreams and I feel just as tired the next day as I would have if she had been awake every 2 hours.
Happy thought: G gets the priesthood on Sunday! YAAAAAAAY!
thank goodness for GREAT husbands!!!
I didn’t move out of the country, and I think I feel and do the same things sometimes.
Motherhood is hard no matter where you are. Will it help to know that I think you are a wonderful mother and to stop worrying about that? Will it help to know that your girls will be just fine no matter where they live and what you do as long as they feel the love of family. Really they will.