~Review of Confessions of a Slacker Mom & My Insecurities~

May 27th, 2009 in Tuesday: Weekly Book Review

Why I am glad I read this book?

It gave me the justification and reasons to just chill out as a mother, for which I have to give myself a bit of props. I think I have come a long way but this book opened my eyes a bit more.

The author urges you to trust YOURSELF as a parent and teaches great points to raise confident and healthy ADULTS. I believe this book is a must-read for all mothers and is exactly what I needed to hear at this time in my life.

One thing, though…reading this book and “interpreting” her tone and opinions as being critical in some parts of the book (which I am almost sure is all me, not her) brought out a huge insecurity of mine

Being a Young Stay-At-Home Mother

In other words, not going after a career and getting married and having children at a young age. You would think by knowing my decisions were the right ones for me I would feel 100% confident, yet I hate dealing with the insecurity I feel when other women bring up the silliness they see in having children young, getting married “as a baby” and not pursing “your dreams.” Or that in five or ten more years I will realize I wasted away a critical time of my life.

Sometimes I feel inadequate compared to other women because my dream was to raise children when it was right for me, in my early twenties. I almost feel embarrassed my true happiness comes from playing silly games, running around in sprinklers and reading books under the clouds all day long with the girls. I wonder if that makes me less intelligent or maybe even….lazy compared to other women or that I am being a horrible example to them in not spending a large part of my time focused on myself and my dreams.

And then other times I feel completely sure and proud of myself. I listened to my heart and knew two little babies were waiting to be my daughters. I am glad I listened and need to just let my insecurities float away. I cherish the times I can see my life so crystal clear, when I can feel proud of the decisions I have made. I try to hold onto those when I am feeling insecure.

Why is that so hard to do? I am sure my life will evolve and change. As I “grow up” I feel it starting to a bit…but boy, am I glad my babies and husband are along for the ride.

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